March 5th 11

Hi friends:
  Well here I go again.Thursday morning,I went and had that PET scan done. Radition and all..(and no Larry the dog wase'nt involved).
  Friday,I went to Banner Good Sam.and had a 3 hour MRI.with and without dye.
  Later that day I saw the radition doc. and he explained the results of the scans..CRAP !!!!    The tumor the brain surgen took out after Christmas is back and the same size !!(4cm) The tumor in my left lung is just a little larger(11cm},so smoking aint the problem!! The PET scan found a few more,
The right adrenal gland is totally cancerous and non functional.It also found a small tumor near my colon(I thought I was done with that one).
  I sort of cornered the doc. in my own sweet way, and requested a time line.At first he wanted to do full rad.treatment to give me a few months,I told him that he was nothing but a darned salesman, praying on peoples hopes.
  After we got that crap out of the way,I was told about 2 months would be about it.The lung wouldn't do me in, but the brain tumor would get so painful that I would soon become an invalid and insane(oh well).
  The silly doctor finally gave up trying to make more money and had Hospice of the Valley contact me.
  Friday late afternoon a very nice lady from hospice came by the house to interview me. I guess she needed to know about me and Larry, so she could set me up with a nurse that we could get along with.
  Monday,hospice is sending a social worker here to get my brother Ron,and my friend Rich,to sign paper work for my care,meds,and money.Larry can't sign his name yet,so I have to have a neighbor sign as a witness.
  I have decided to have absoulty hospital stuff again.So all the paper work involves DO NOT RESUSATATE. There will be a doctor visiting when the nurses cant do certian things.
Cool !! when it gets really bad,,he can give me DILAUDID.
 I have already filled out forms,that when I get stupid,they are to keep me asleep untill I pass.And they can do that
  Enough about that stuff right now..Please,,,for me,,
Kiss and hug your spouse,,think hard before you scold the kids,talk to old friends,and say a prayer for everyone you know,,,
  Looks like I have only about 6 weeks to keep this blog going,(I'll get really stupid on here)so I guess I better wright more often.
  Just something to think about,,some days I feel too good to die,but think about the people in bike wrecks that felt good too.
                       Love you all

Feb.28th 2011

Hi friends;
   Sorry about not adding anything latley,but there just hasent been anything..
   Well maybe there has been,,A lady friend (ex-wife),contacted me on Facebook,,,COOL !! I was concerned about meeting up with her but Hey!! what did I have to lose?
It's been great so far, Jill dosent ask anything of me and I dont ask anything of her..Seems like we should have stayed together thru all those years past.
  Saturday, we went to that Lost Dutchmans thing in Apache Juction. A very dear friend of mine was playing on stage all afternoon !! If anyone can get a chance to see him and his band,,PLEASE do !! Also we met up with my bestist friend,,Bill..He looked great !!! Jill and I danced one dance and walked around abit,Then I spoiled things by getting tired,,,Grrrrr
  The headaches are still sneaking up on me(maybe 'cause I cut back on my meds). And now I'm starting to feel the crap in my chest,,Seems like I'm breathing alittle faster to get my air. And my left side of my chest feels alittle heaver(like someone is pressing on me). Oh well one day at a time,Right?
  I taught Larry the dog to stay off my bed, 'cause now I call him Harry Larry( he's shedding all over!!).He will be going to my lil' brothers home when I'm gone and he dosent allow his doggie on the bed.But now,when I get undressed for the night Larry scrunches up my clothes and sleeps on them.What a dog I have !!
  I miss all of my friends, and wish I could share time with you all..To those that have called,,Thank you..To those of you that take the time to comment,,Thank you too..I love reading them !!
  Please remember,,make your peace with GOD now !!!  You just never know (do you?). I did along time ago,even when some people didnt see it that way.In the book of Matthew,chapter 6,,Jesus told his buddies that they shouldnt run around prayin and singing so's everyone could hear,,Only GOD needs to hear you,( it goes something like that)
  I'll try to get on here alittle more if my friends wanna read
                            Love you all !!!